İçimde kaç kadın yaşıyor benim? Beynimi kemiren bu fikirlerin hepsi bana ait olamaz. İnsan kendiyle bu kadar çelişir mi? Kafam karışıyor, gece bitti, gün ağrıyor; hala yerlerine oturmadı düşünceler. Kaç karar aldım, hepsini bozdum…
Aşk, alkol gibi insanı uyuşturuyor. Dengem bozuldu, kendimle kavga etmekten yoruldum. Birazdan şurada uyuyacağım. Aşk denilen oyunun bütün kurallarını biliyordum ama şimdi hepsini unuttum. Aslında hatırlıyorum da oynayasım yok. Bu defa diyorum, açık olsun kartlarımız. Kimse kandırmasın, düzen kurmasın, yalan söylemesin. Bunun içinde tek kural, gerçekten aşık olmak!
Love, like alcohol, people are numb. My balance is broken, tired of a fight with my own. I’ll sleep there. I knew all the rules of the game called love, but now I forgot them all. In fact, I remember not play. This time, I said “you open the card. Nobody cheat, you are setting up schemes, lie. The only rules that really fall in love!
First come tonight as I was her, I said I’m out appoint. The girl was among the dead of night, I said here we go, everyone was preparing. That bar you, this bar I was going to visit. My head was going to deploy, I would say from. Flashing in the morning çorbacı against flashlight, a song would touch my heart, my eyes would fill, in the absence of swearing going. Maybe two would be double the drink to get drunk, I was the first greetings give no recognition of the arm went into a house I do not. Regret would be thousand times to wake up, I would swear you more, I hate myself I was doing worse. How much dirt you know that does not wash them? Not a soul would be polluted because of the things the body. I have to consider them essential, call everyone individually, I said will not go. Half of your hair, make-up after most of the chick remained silent.
Then I got the phone in my hand, I was looking for you. We closed the line without falling. Was going to post, there was also indispensable. Open and closed even let me hang around so the mobile phone, I was in bed at myself, I stink bag was fucking. My nerves came from the deli. I went to Salon, I was back seat this time, in my control, I have all the channels around. Fucking, one Saturday night to watch the program did not find correctly. Normally, my mind, but you would have found dozens. He also closed. What good is a feeling of love, you, I remembered our conversation. My heart was softened at once, I found peace. I cooked a really nice coffee. I opened my book, I began to read. I loved that came to my mind, I smile. Well, Where were you? I still get angry!
I went to the bathroom. Fill the bathtub for a long as my body would make sauce, foam was shed. I think the gesture had come up I said to myself do I do, I’ve given up. Cock closed, I went to the salon. I called one of the Friends. I have a good long talk. As I explained, I did gush. It was nice when you know you love to wait. Moreover, what is noble, half way to eye. I’ve kept a ballad. “Cihan I also know I burnt you, my burning, burning my amaaaann ….” I was inside the new coffee, tea already do not like. Know what to do, without a ridiculous hour of the night I started to clean. Kitchen was shining. When it would be purified. However, did not come for days, so I stopped cleaning, and what I did not cut me. Standing at the top of the table have confused magazines. I was the girl again, I inserted the top of my jeans, T-shirt, jumped in the car, I have visited over the streets. Red-light side of the car is a nice man smiled, but did not respond in my head did not çevir. Hi did this time, I went and I came in, a smile would look at everything, I can not eat. Are still red side, I pressed the gas passed.
Began to play a favorite song on the radio. I blubber. I went to the house. I went to run the stairs, I stopped breathing. I sit down, relax, how difficult is the lack of thought. The evil woman had me beat, but also very successful test with my next angel could say.
Idea how many times a night people will change? How many times the spirit of flying? These are not things sane woman would do. I love the balance was cash. Of course, dear, in fact your whole offense. You come, my heart got confused, my eyes were used. Now it is hard to do based on the absence. A woman with this much more in me I may not have the strength to fight. Then who is not certain, some beats. Better, you never leave me, dear !……